Coffee Cup

Seminggu lalu pas tanggal 3 maret 2012, pukul 5.15 PM saya ngerencanain buat berangkat dari markas (kos.red) di daerah Lidah Wetan - Surabaya ke gresik, tepatnya kearah kota. saya ngambil jalur citraland - babat jerawat - Gelora Bung Tomo yang ternyata macetnya setengah mati!! and ujung2nya nyampe di gresik jam 7.30 PM...!!! gosh! Hal ini ga lain ga bukan karena keteledoran saya yang lupa bahwa waktu itu ada pertandingan persebaya vs arema indonesia di stadion Gelora Bung Tomo (well cukup kaget karena akhirnya tu gedung akhirnya kepake juga,,,mbangun mahal2, make jarang2 alasane birokrasi,,,bah jembek sama birokrasi). bisa dibayangin bejibunnya bonek2 mania pada pulang ngerayain kemenangan sambil sorak sorai, apalagi lawannya arema,,  Lantas, apa itu yang bikin macet? oh tidak bisa... mereka juga punya hak buat make jalan... lantas yang bikin macet apaan? jawabannya cuma 1 JALANNYA SEMPIT, CUMA 2 METER!! Lho kok gitu? ya emang... ga fair banget kalo nyalahin bo...

If I lose any more than this, will my heart be forgiven How much pain before I can see you again One more time, please don't change the season One more time to the time when we fool around When our path cross each other, I am always the first to turn Making me indulge more in my selfish way One more chance tripped by memories One more chance we cannot choose our next place

source through the act of living itself sadness piles up here and there whether in the wet laundry hung to dry in the cloudy day the single helmet on the bike or the history logs on the mobile Ima demo watashi wa mada anata o suki

source i saw a dream for two days in a row.. the similar one.. it was so clear to me..as a gift to understand the crack and dirt on me.. the dust that possibly waken up the allergic of yours.. and finally drove you away.. say.. i am pretty blind right? needing a season passed needing a dream showed in a row even though the clues scattered all around me.. maybe it is true that i am just an airhead guy..

masih teringat jelas pertanyaan dari salah seorang siswi di salah satu sekolah disuatu hari di minggu ke 4 bulan ini *ni tadi waktu nulis liat kalender di hape dulu nih... ni cerita ga bermaksud ngelawak ato apa jadi kalo pembaca bilang ini garing ato apalah aq ga ngereken juga.. begini ceritanya:

i don't know what it is... i don't think i'm happy.. since i'm not smiling.. i don't think i'm sad.. since i'm not jerking tears.. just plain...it sucks.. my interest to do anything..fade away.. ah, emptiness maybe.. whatever it called, it doesn't matter.. everything just come and gone.. i don,t get it why it has to come anyway kinda fool.. it pisses me off.. ah, now i'm getting mad..angry ? i don't think so..not really..well completely not..perhaps.. then i start to write this.. in the end i don't feel any change.. it's just the same as before.. it seems like.. boredom has been trying to kill me slowly...step by step.. yeah, boredom,, i'm getting bored? no,,i think i'm not.. uneasy and irritated maybe..i don't know.. ah fuck off...

source To:  Tuhan Tuhan, Cuma engkau dan aku yang tahu rahasia ini Tuhan, maaf jika aku harus mengarang sandiwara ini Sebuah sandiwara yang bahkan menyulut benci Dengan berbagai retorika dan amarah semu Yang bahkan tak pantas dipentaskan dibumimu Dan bahkan terlalu hina untuk pagelaran bertikar lama